honey i'm... stressed.

Ok, i've been back at my beloved college, and I'm already growing grey hairs (yes, I spell "gray" like that).

My school has done everything in its power to get under my skin for the past 2 weeks. First of all, freshman week was HALF as fun as I expected it to be. Maybe my class is mellow.

Or maybe the freshman class is just lame. -_-.

I didn't get to go where I wanted because it just didn't happen like that. My dorm (which is supposed to be the most fun, poppin dorm out there) was rather dormant. And within that dormant dorm, I live on one of the quietest floors. Ugh.

Then classes start, and classes I'm locked out of but NEED are denying me overrides. I'm down by a bazillion credits off the bat, and I'm scared this year is going to be so busy for me, but none of that hubbub will be focused on my studies. Why? Because as of now, I HAVE no studies!

This year is starting off terrible and I've only had two days of actually classes. Pleaseee make this a turnaround.

Oh, let me add. I got a blister on my foot from the new flats I got, but wait... I have no bandaids.

Screw me.

~Stassi X.

I Lied..

here's one more post before I'm stationed in DC [3 days]...

i just wrote this poem at the top of my head..


Hangin On

as the sleep gathers in my eyes
the thoughts scatter through my mind
and i find myself believin
that this love bobbing and weavin
is okay
just as long as you stay

it's not that i got the wrong mindset
holding to you tight like a corset
i won't say i forced it
its. just.
hard to understand
why i'd even want you as a man
you never cared for me before
you seldom grasped my hand
and told me that you'd hold me
just because you can

never the one to defend me
i appreciate that you befriended me
but thats just not enough
don't know who i am nomore
just know that it's an empty me

i should set my standards higher than that
say that if he aint buying, he's wack
he treats me right, but yea, that's besides the fact...

if i can't get what i want from you emotionally
and hear that when you with your boys, you always boast 'bout me
my girls say dash for that cash, but don't give up no ass
he's nothin but a dog, send his ass to the trash

i try not to listen, cuz i know what's best for me
i got faith in us, i know he'll come around. they'll see.

S.A.E.
8-11-09

Tick Tock..

And down winds the clock.

Not counting today, I have 3 full days left in New York. Then I'm off to the District, woo! Oh how I missed it so. I missed my Howard University, my friends, my mini families, and the freedom.

I know I'll miss my family and all, but honestly, this has been the longest summer everrrr (literally, because I was off for 4 months =/)

The next time I blog, I should be comfortably situated in my dorm =].

Til then, toodles!

~Stassi X.