reference point.

i just had to document my ambitions for my junior year at college.

i'm going to be SO on top of my game next year.

i will be at damn near every Hilltop budget meeting getting clips out the ass and getting practice.

i WILL get into a reporting & writing course and more than fulfill my minimum 15 story requirement. i WILL get a B in that class.

i will aim for a photo internship in DC for the fall. if not, i shall apply to an editorial internship for the fall (NPR, washington life, etc.)

i will bust my chops in yearbook and be the biggest help i can and leave outta there with at least 5 clips. make it happen.

im gonna apply to ASME and my application will be BOMB. i know my recommendation letter will be amazing because guess who will be the most aggressive contributing writer to the hilltop? guess who's the hilltop's adviser? =)

i willllll apply to a crapload of summer internships IN NEW YORK starting from september.

i will receive an A in every class. and a B in reporting and writing.

i will do that stuff, prove and prevail.

and i WILL.

#thatisFLIPPINall, i needa go to church after this because i truly believe in myself and i must print this post and hang it EVERYWHERE on my wall.

but i didnt want to.

i walked the brooklyn bridge today.

now refer to my title.

sometimes you need friends to force you to do things you reallllly THINK you don't want to do. i need that more often.

blessing #347926538: GOOD GREAT FRIENDS.

NATURALS DO IT BETTER.

just felt like sharing an original.

find me on tumblr: www.shutyourmouthopenyoureyes.tumblr.com
i shall co-exist there.

now back to the feature...

I Dream in Black and White

Alone, but not really. I’m surrounded by colors

The world around me explodes into a broken rainbow

Everyone indistinguishable from one another.

Time goes by fast when the crooked are made straight

When the foundations vanish, gone are the great.

I crumble. So do they.

Me next, they all pray.

I shut my eyes to leave the confusion

Leave the screams of a dream fulfilled, and a dream lost.

Identity found while being forfeited

I try to scream too, until my voice is hoarse.

Lay me on a beach of jet black sand

Soak up the side of me that people try to shun

Can’t put together where one life ended and another begun

Jumbled. Scattered. Alive. My mind is crowded.

Scan the sunlit prism. Isn’t this what I wanted?

We’re not together. It’s just the first goodbye.

Do you feel the same love you did last time you looked me in the eyes?

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And like that, my thoughts go up in flames

My dreams turn to ash

Reality came at me like a speeding bullet

And I woke up too fast

When you cut out all the bullshit and know you’re forced to wait

You’re mind is the only place you can color and be safe.

I hate living in black and white. I mean,

Compared to standing in the middle of a dream

In the midst of darkness, you’ll realize

It’s so much lonelier when you open your eyes.

4-18-10

Inspiration List

I feel like I'm lacking drive. I need inspiration, so I look to these:

"Brown Sugar"
Fuze the MC
Sex and the City
Wale
J.Cole
Shake
Solange Knowles
Anceztaz
BarbudaSun Photography
Jasmine Whiting Photography
Concrete Loop
Natelege
Angela Boatwright
Honey magazine

These people are not only self starters, but they have passion. They have drive. Or at least they represent it. I need for that to rub off on me.