The World is on Some Bull-shhh.

The world is retarded.

It only sees in black and white.

Gray is such a neglected color.

Why don't people believe in middle ground? Why does everything have to be in terms of extremes? Why do I have to be extremely religious, or just wrong? Why do I have to be afro-centric-just-looking-to-fight-the-power just because I don't have a perm anymore? Why do I have to be decided in my life career choices from now? Why do I have to be lighter/caramel skinned, with almond eyes, plump lips, wavy/curly/NOT NAPPY hair, coke bottle waist, and "fat ass" for a guy to be like damn she bad? Why do I need to at least have ONE of the above to get anyone to turn their head? Why do I have to be a part of hazed organizations (and I'm actually not talking about sororities) to be socially recognized? Why do you have to be a budding socialite to attend my university? Why can't you advance to a socialite if you didn't start trying (aka being thirsty) since freshman year? Why is it that if you don't have alot of guy friends, you don't have ANY guy friends?

I'm tired of this all or nothing, ultimatum world that I have the misfortune of being birthed into. I seriously wish I was surrounded by hippies. I'd be the happiest ball of brown fluff walking down Georgia Avenue.

Just had to get that out of my system as I sulk and wish my life were different. I hate feeling that'd I'd ever want to be someone else sometimes. I don't like having to be compared to the people around me and know I don't and won't fit into the awesome category and there's not much else I can do about it. I think about my options: I could submerge myself in work, charity, grinding, and hustling to make something bigger than myself (which may come with no inner satisfaction), say fuck it, to hell with it, and have the most fun and leave everything as an open choice, orrrrrrrr sit here and blog about how I don't like any of those options.

See what I mean? The gray area gets no fucking love.

Please excuse my French.

`Stassi X.